A Link to the Past 

                                                           by Laurie Larsen 

When I was twelve years old, my parents pursued a long-time dream to provide a stable family life to a disadvantaged older child.  In the summer of 1974, we  welcomed a seven-year old boy into our family.  My new brother Scott was a beautiful child.  With sandy blonde hair and blue eyes, he had a physical likeness to me and we immediately developed a bond.  I had never been a big sister before and I liked my new role. 

It wasn't easy.  Scott's background as an abused and neglected child ensured a troubled future.  He had learning disabilities, behavioral problems and a history of experiences that seven-year olds shouldn't have to endure, which tainted his view of the world. 

Throughout Scott's childhood, he tried to come to grips with his past and the hand Life had dealt him.  He tried to fit into our family and become a child who felt loved, confident about his abilities and his future.  But the atrocities he'd suffered at the hands of his biological parents were too strong to forget. 

Bedtime was his enemy.  He insisted on sleeping with his light on, as if darkness was a curtain that his enemies could hide behind, then sneak up on him in his sleepy vulnerability. 

As Scott's short life continued, it became more and more difficult for him to function in normal society.  Punching a teacher, getting kicked out of school, attending a military academy, petty theft and spending time in jail were all on his plate before the age of 18. 

When Scott was 18 he decided he needed a fresh start.  He moved to Chicago, got a job at a florist shop, and secured an apartment which he shared with a co-worker.  In correspondence he sent to me he said that he felt he was finally getting his life back on track.  He was working towards his G.E.D., considering college later on, and working hard at his job.  He said he knew that our family loved him, and if he'd recognized that at an earlier age, his present life would be quite different. 

On a cold evening in January of 1986, Scott's life came to an unspeakable end.  He walked to the bus station to meet his girlfriend who had come to visit for the weekend.  On their stroll back to his apartment, they noticed a dark figure following them in the shadows.  When Scott reached his front door and inserted the key, the stranger materialized and shot him three times in the back.  Scott's body slumped against the door, his weight pushing it open and he landed inside his apartment.  He died an hour later at the hospital. 

The call came at two in the morning. I remember coming home after a date and I found it odd that the lights were on.  My first impulse was the thought that my parents were waiting up for me, which annoyed me a little since I was an "independent" 24-year old.  The news came like a baseball bat in the stomach.  Driving 2 1/2 hours in the middle of the night to identify your son's body at the Chicago morgue is something a mother should never have to do. 

Now that eleven birthdays have passed, and eleven anniversaries of his death, the murder has become one of those events in life that you just have to accept, or go crazy.  The fact that the killer went to the police, confessed and led them to the murder weapon, not to mention an eye witness, made us confident that we had an iron-clad case to put him away for life.  A technicality, the police not reading him his rights, became the loophole the murderer stepped through, big enough to land him right back on the streets, free to kill again. 

This spring my parents were contacted by a woman from the adoption agency we worked with to obtain Scott in 1974.  Unknown to us and to Scott himself, Scott's biological mother had numerous other children, most of whom she also abandoned at some point in their lives.  One sibling, a half-sister named Debra born in 1960, seven years before Scott, had been doing some research into her family tree and discovered some information about him.  She contacted the adoption agency, who wanted my parents to share information and stories of Scott's life with them, which they would pass on to Debra. 

Debra was one of the lucky ones ... her father loyally kept the child who was abandoned by her mother and gave her a happy, healthy childhood.  She appreciated knowing everything my parents shared about our lives with Scott.  Although she'll never have the chance to get to know him, she feels a sense of closure in knowing his story. 

What kind of mother can abandon her child?  What kind of person makes mistakes over and over again without learning from the consequences?  What kind of parent doesn't realize that their selfish actions will ensure a tragic life for their offspring?  What kind of parent realizes, but doesn't care?

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